Name: And it Was
Duration: P00H05M00S
Description: one of the first songs i ever wrote (2010, maybe 2009?). it was originally a dumb love song and had dumber digital orchestration but over the years i listened to more music and watched cancer and alzheimer's destroy the brains of my mother and grandmother respectively. kind of an attempt to write from the point of view of someone struggling to hold onto their deteriorating brain.

And it Was

from Mommy Issues / Daddy's House by Matt Sturgis

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one of the first songs i ever wrote (2010, maybe 2009?). it was originally a dumb love song and had dumber digital orchestration but over the years i listened to more music and watched cancer and alzheimer's destroy the brains of my mother and grandmother respectively. kind of an attempt to write from the point of view of someone struggling to hold onto their deteriorating brain.

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so here i sit again, accepting what i see.
these walls are unfamiliar, i don't know what surrounds me.
who is that in the mirror, what am i becoming?
my body, it is fading along with my memories.

moments of clarity, they disappear.
all disparity, it perseveres.
there's hilarity in keeping faith.
is it even worth to keep giving grace?

so put your face up to my cage,
i've got something to say.
i don't remember days
when we were young and it was beautiful.
there's a tugging at the sheets,
i swear you're there but it's just me.
this pain's preventing me from sleep,
the night was long and it was

just leave me with my showtunes,
they'll keep my brain from going blue.
don't believe the poison i spew
or forget me as i have you.

i've seen you a million times before,
now i can't recall you anymore.
the sun sinks as the moon will slowly rise.
this old world keeps spinning 'round, you can close your eyes.

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from Mommy Issues / Daddy's House, released April 2, 2017

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