another one of the first songs i ever wrote, maybe the first i recorded guitar and piano on. i'm working on rewriting and rerecording this for the next thing i do, but this is the first version of this song i was able to find and felt it made sense including it here. again, note the ostentatious production and digital drums. also some dumb lyrics that were written just cause they rhymed.
lyrics
you've been holding your breath much too long,
living on nothing but memories foregone.
your silence is screaming for me to come on,
but you can't find anywhere that you belong.
the knocks on the door, the rings of the phone
constant reminders that you're all alone.
you wish they could see how much you've grown
and abandoned the accidents to which you were prone.
the smell of your hair, the sound when you speak (cringe)
are damn near enough to make my knees go weak. (cringe)
you were happier then, back when you were meek,
and it's impossible to find yourself while your bed creaks. (cringe)
your lack of astuteness, your bad resolutions
have got me all tangled up in knots.
your bodily pollution, no chance of absolution,
don't think for one second that i have forgot.
to ask me why be honest when the whole world's a lie
is like asking why live if we're living to die.
but you're still convinced that the end is nigh,
is it easy for you to put everything aside and just drive?
you've turned into someone i'd never stand by,
but you're just like a drug and i need to get high.
i'd like to be the one upon whom you rely,
but you've put everything aside and believed the lies.
all of your life you've been ignored,
wishing that you could be the one that's adored.
no one ever told you, "be careful what you wish for,"
and now you just wish you could be restored.
(some of these words now make me cringe but i think it's important to show how one grows and how priorities and minds change etc.)